Hello again... cha praised the use of a non-xanga site. Inspired me just a lil... @ first I felt uncomfortable about talking about myself & my days & whatnot... but I think that i just have the mindset that no one actually reads this, so with this justificatin I go on.

I'm sad. There's so many days left of high school... & it feels like I have zero social life. This might be my own fault... seeing as I'm an indoors person who just likes to sit on the couch & veg out with her cats on weekends... but I do wonder what would happen if people actually asked me to go out with them. Would I? & what prevents them from asking me to go out & do something in the first place? I know I got all isolation booth type person in the beginning of the year... I think that this has permanently damaged my social life. Am I complaining? I'm not really in a way cause I'm happy with vegging out & staying in... but then I see the funn others have & the exclusion & just being on the inside looking out makes me feel... like I'm missing something. But being ignorant doesn't make me feel that way. I shouldn't want to change myself if I'm happy with the way I am... & as long as I stop comparing myself to other people I can do that...

IM GOING TO USF! I was positively giddy when I found out. My parents didn't actually tell me, they just tell me we're going to the school not to look around, but to drop off forms. DROP OFF FORMS MEANS REGISTRATION! Every time we start talking about the money though I get sad. But I'm ever so grateful to my parents for letting me go where I want to go, & not forcing me to go to a school that's supposed to be better but just doesn't suit... have funn @ Davis, Sean, Drea, Droasty, Ryan (Chuy! =D ), & Jason... I'm sorry Jason! You can still drive me aound tho!...

My parents & my sis & me (I) ate @ the Calfornia Culinary Academy bc there was a buffet & we had discount... to my sadness, my palate hasn't developed to that sophisticated level... plus I'm bloating (man cramps are evil) bloated?, so I couldnt have had maximum enjoyment. & then I got cheap prom shoes, & when I tried them on with my dress, the train worked properly, so I have to teach myself not to step on it so much... but I got all sad cause I thought of prom & prom makes me depressed for personal reasons... speaking of personal reasons...

I was thinking of having a combined blog w/the boyfriend... cause I dont want this site to be like a dedication to him & us & our one dimensional lives together (ahem, Luana, sound familiar? [no im not saying guna does this but she knows what im referring to]) yes so to avoid that... maybe me & him could share a blog cause we dont see each other & talk to each other that much seeing as he's like an hour away half of the week. But then I'm wondering my belief that he would actually update the thing & whatnot...

so yes today I did jae & sean a favor & yeah, jami always makes me feel the best when i do nice things for her... she makes me feel sooo appreciated... and sometimes that's all i need, is to feel appreciated... so I just wanted to say a big big THANK YOU to jami... she helped to bring up my depressing day a notch...

ohhhkae... bye!