Hello all... Friday, today, I took the day off just so I could find Nemo... haha @ the very first showing with all of the children! Cause you know I don't see enough children on my daily adventures at Marine World... anyway so yeah, Roo requested that I take the whole day off of work so we could watch the movie then play... & then she decides to go home after the movie! So yeah... me & her found Nemo... man, that movie was EMOTIONAL! Haha... yes, I firmly believe that there were just some things that happened in that movie that shouldn't have!!! Not to say that it was a bad movie... just... emotional! Marlon went through SO much to find Nemo! SO MANY STRUGGLES! But yeah, it was funny... Crush is my new hero. I want to live to be 150 years old just like him!
Anyway yeah, so I kinna shortcutted my day... actually it went like go to Target, see Jennie & Christian there, buy some stuff, go to Jamba Juice, go to movies, then go home & greet relatives who are there for preparation for tomorrow's funn, then go out with Michael to Sunvalley to go activate a new phone for me. Yes, okay, so the skinny on that is that my boyfriend used to work for Circuit City, so he had this one phone from Sprint that he had discount on cause of his job, so for the past year he's been paying like seventeen dollars for 750 anytime & 750 nights & weekends for my funn lil flip phone that like, no one else had! So yes, the other day when I got off from work, I had a message that said that because Michael no longer works for Circuit City, we have to call to switch to a consumer plan or they're going to deactivate the service by the thirteenth of June. Haha, so yeah, we got myself a new phone of which I'm paying half (or more) for... because I'm slowly learning how to be an independent woman, but having the boyfriend who's like the best in the world makes that slightly difficult. My phone has color now... and right now... Michael's having a keen time learning the ins & outs of the phone & programming my phone book & ring tones and the shebang of it all.
So tomorrow I graduate. Now I'm going to ramble like I always do, and I know that most people just skim through the whole thing cause it's too long, so that's why I think that it's okay to talk about how I really feel here. That, and I can't seem to express it in any other way but by being silently pissed off.
Graduation. Swear that the word had like no meaning on me. I just... nothing seemed to sink in. I didn't feel it. It just felt like everyone was just making a big deal out of nothing... like it was supposed to be this big thing and there's all this hype around it when the reality SO doesn't live up to the expectations... and me being me, I always think that it's better to be depressed all the time, so that everything that's good that happens to you is a pleasant surprise. I didn't feel like getting my hopes up over nothing. I know that after graduation all these people who know & love me are coming over to my place to eat and celebrate this auspicious occasion... but then I also felt like it was more of for my parents than it actually was for me, and all the food that was going to be there, I don't even eat (I'm extremely picky)... and the whole thing just depressed me... and then isht went down @ baccalaureate mass... I just got all frustrated and pissed as usual... =/ I just felt like people suck. That was pretty much all there was to it....
Then tonite I read my yearbook. I read everyone's senior quotes... and what people put in my yearbook... and it started to have an effect on me... Cha saying how we're not going to see each other every day at school & whatnot... that's SO weird. I've seen Cha practically everyday of my educational career since like third or fourth grade. She's always just... around... being my bestest friend in the universe and everything... and not seeing her everyday?... That's just unfathomable to me... (yeah I know I'm pulling out the big guns with the vocab knowledge)... it makes me truly wish for the future to hold days of touring Chinatown & Japantown with her, catching up over Ha Gao & Ebi & tea.
& then Joe Castro... who practically made me cower in my ugly ass black platform shoes freshie year... to hugging me to happiness this year... he makes me feel better cause he lets me know that I made him feel better... that's what I always feel the best about... when people tell me that I've meant something to them... that way I know that my existance wasn't in vain and I did make a difference. Granted, it's not that whole changing the democracy system difference that I longterm aim for... but it's a difference nonetheless. Like that one time my lilbrother said "I love you ate..." to me... that practically made me cry too. Little things make up life. I live for little things. I am a little thing!
People almost made me cry... and if you know me, I'm not the type to cry at the occasions that you're supposed to cry at... I didn't cry at any of the Spirit Squad's senior nights... I didn't cry at my eighth grade graduation... so I don't think that I'm going to cry @ this graduation. I almost cried @ baccalaureate, but for a different reason, not for the sadness of the ending and the whatnot. So yeah, what everyone says about this being an important day and that it's the end or the beginning or whatever, that means kinna nothing to me... what does mean something is Cha craving Asian food, Joe hugs, Guna/Hub/O 4th periods, taking pictures of Celicas with roommate, feeding Chrissy & Charlene leftovers of my lunch, talking about WB shows with Tricia, driving over slow bumps with Jae, getting mad @ the eaters & the borrowers w/Deanna, putting my finger in Jon's ear, stealing Joe Ning's jewelry, screwing up Jeremy's eyebrows, smiling @ Nessa, and MUFFINS with Les, Gem, & V-Ron...
Much more later. Time to go to Safeway to do some cookin & shoppin for the boys... hasta pasta (roni)!
Anyway yeah, so I kinna shortcutted my day... actually it went like go to Target, see Jennie & Christian there, buy some stuff, go to Jamba Juice, go to movies, then go home & greet relatives who are there for preparation for tomorrow's funn, then go out with Michael to Sunvalley to go activate a new phone for me. Yes, okay, so the skinny on that is that my boyfriend used to work for Circuit City, so he had this one phone from Sprint that he had discount on cause of his job, so for the past year he's been paying like seventeen dollars for 750 anytime & 750 nights & weekends for my funn lil flip phone that like, no one else had! So yes, the other day when I got off from work, I had a message that said that because Michael no longer works for Circuit City, we have to call to switch to a consumer plan or they're going to deactivate the service by the thirteenth of June. Haha, so yeah, we got myself a new phone of which I'm paying half (or more) for... because I'm slowly learning how to be an independent woman, but having the boyfriend who's like the best in the world makes that slightly difficult. My phone has color now... and right now... Michael's having a keen time learning the ins & outs of the phone & programming my phone book & ring tones and the shebang of it all.
So tomorrow I graduate. Now I'm going to ramble like I always do, and I know that most people just skim through the whole thing cause it's too long, so that's why I think that it's okay to talk about how I really feel here. That, and I can't seem to express it in any other way but by being silently pissed off.
Graduation. Swear that the word had like no meaning on me. I just... nothing seemed to sink in. I didn't feel it. It just felt like everyone was just making a big deal out of nothing... like it was supposed to be this big thing and there's all this hype around it when the reality SO doesn't live up to the expectations... and me being me, I always think that it's better to be depressed all the time, so that everything that's good that happens to you is a pleasant surprise. I didn't feel like getting my hopes up over nothing. I know that after graduation all these people who know & love me are coming over to my place to eat and celebrate this auspicious occasion... but then I also felt like it was more of for my parents than it actually was for me, and all the food that was going to be there, I don't even eat (I'm extremely picky)... and the whole thing just depressed me... and then isht went down @ baccalaureate mass... I just got all frustrated and pissed as usual... =/ I just felt like people suck. That was pretty much all there was to it....
Then tonite I read my yearbook. I read everyone's senior quotes... and what people put in my yearbook... and it started to have an effect on me... Cha saying how we're not going to see each other every day at school & whatnot... that's SO weird. I've seen Cha practically everyday of my educational career since like third or fourth grade. She's always just... around... being my bestest friend in the universe and everything... and not seeing her everyday?... That's just unfathomable to me... (yeah I know I'm pulling out the big guns with the vocab knowledge)... it makes me truly wish for the future to hold days of touring Chinatown & Japantown with her, catching up over Ha Gao & Ebi & tea.
& then Joe Castro... who practically made me cower in my ugly ass black platform shoes freshie year... to hugging me to happiness this year... he makes me feel better cause he lets me know that I made him feel better... that's what I always feel the best about... when people tell me that I've meant something to them... that way I know that my existance wasn't in vain and I did make a difference. Granted, it's not that whole changing the democracy system difference that I longterm aim for... but it's a difference nonetheless. Like that one time my lilbrother said "I love you ate..." to me... that practically made me cry too. Little things make up life. I live for little things. I am a little thing!
People almost made me cry... and if you know me, I'm not the type to cry at the occasions that you're supposed to cry at... I didn't cry at any of the Spirit Squad's senior nights... I didn't cry at my eighth grade graduation... so I don't think that I'm going to cry @ this graduation. I almost cried @ baccalaureate, but for a different reason, not for the sadness of the ending and the whatnot. So yeah, what everyone says about this being an important day and that it's the end or the beginning or whatever, that means kinna nothing to me... what does mean something is Cha craving Asian food, Joe hugs, Guna/Hub/O 4th periods, taking pictures of Celicas with roommate, feeding Chrissy & Charlene leftovers of my lunch, talking about WB shows with Tricia, driving over slow bumps with Jae, getting mad @ the eaters & the borrowers w/Deanna, putting my finger in Jon's ear, stealing Joe Ning's jewelry, screwing up Jeremy's eyebrows, smiling @ Nessa, and MUFFINS with Les, Gem, & V-Ron...
Much more later. Time to go to Safeway to do some cookin & shoppin for the boys... hasta pasta (roni)!
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