I miss my boyfriend. He made me feel hella happy today. I'm so glad that I got to spend time with him... we just ate @ Pasta P, cause we haven't done that in awhile, then to Target & Payless & then back to his house to watch a bootleg Friends episode he dled on his computer. It was nice... comfortable. I haven't felt that way in awhile.
I don't know if I'm being so melodramatic to say that I feel unloved. Not unloved, definitely not by family & Michael. Maybe... unpopular? Does that make sense? Unattended to... neglected? Maybe. It's hard to put it into words. I know I bring it onto myself tho, by being such an anti-social hermit all the time.
Everyone, everywhere, keeps saying that the first few months of starting school are hard bc you're still trying to adjust. How come that doesn't make anything more reassurng tho? I'm afraid of a lot of things, things that I'm not usually afraid of. Or maybe it's just that it's been awhile since I've had to be scared of anything.
How did I adjust so well to high school? I didn't have as many adversities as I feel I do now.
My gratitude goes out to Luana, who simply talked and understood me Wednesday night. It helped so much to know that there was someone out there who not only understood my situation, but understood me. I wish she were around more often to advise me & listen to my bitching and moaning.
I guess it shows that I'm haven't been feeling well emotionally lately because I don't feel good physically. I feel tired & sore. Today it kind of felt like I wanted to throw up, but not.
I think being at work tomorrow will make me feel better because I've made some great friendships with the people there. Being out with Michael made me feel better too. He noticed my hair as soon as he saw me, which was a pleasant surprise.
What else... I still think I need to go shopping to make me feel better but spending money makes me feel sad. I want a pair of pink Steve Madden heels but I have nowhere to wear them to. =( Shoes... I need slippers for the dorm. Makeup... 9.10.03. =D Free gift @ Clinique!! Yay. What else can cheer me up?...
Homework makes me sad tho. I always feel stressed out and overwhelmed when I think about it, even tho when I get it done it doesn't feel like that much. Shouldn't I feel more accomplished tho? =/
I don't know if I'm being so melodramatic to say that I feel unloved. Not unloved, definitely not by family & Michael. Maybe... unpopular? Does that make sense? Unattended to... neglected? Maybe. It's hard to put it into words. I know I bring it onto myself tho, by being such an anti-social hermit all the time.
Everyone, everywhere, keeps saying that the first few months of starting school are hard bc you're still trying to adjust. How come that doesn't make anything more reassurng tho? I'm afraid of a lot of things, things that I'm not usually afraid of. Or maybe it's just that it's been awhile since I've had to be scared of anything.
How did I adjust so well to high school? I didn't have as many adversities as I feel I do now.
My gratitude goes out to Luana, who simply talked and understood me Wednesday night. It helped so much to know that there was someone out there who not only understood my situation, but understood me. I wish she were around more often to advise me & listen to my bitching and moaning.
I guess it shows that I'm haven't been feeling well emotionally lately because I don't feel good physically. I feel tired & sore. Today it kind of felt like I wanted to throw up, but not.
I think being at work tomorrow will make me feel better because I've made some great friendships with the people there. Being out with Michael made me feel better too. He noticed my hair as soon as he saw me, which was a pleasant surprise.
What else... I still think I need to go shopping to make me feel better but spending money makes me feel sad. I want a pair of pink Steve Madden heels but I have nowhere to wear them to. =( Shoes... I need slippers for the dorm. Makeup... 9.10.03. =D Free gift @ Clinique!! Yay. What else can cheer me up?...
Homework makes me sad tho. I always feel stressed out and overwhelmed when I think about it, even tho when I get it done it doesn't feel like that much. Shouldn't I feel more accomplished tho? =/
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