I hella want to say something but I know it's going to offend hella people probably... it can be considered that tough love shit, but then I know a lot of people are just going to think that I'm being judgemental and analytical and snobby and bitchy. I think that I'm just going to sound like my parents... you don't want to hear it but it's hella practical if you put your pride aside and think about it...
I'll make it more personal... so I know that I'm probably never going to skip a class here @ USF because it's a complete waste of money if I choose to do so. And my parents don't have that money to waste... so if my parents are going to spend how much to educate me and plan for my future, the least I can do is go to class and try my best.
I guess I don't really understand how people can skip class. Maybe if you're the one who's paying for your classes, it's your own money that you're wasting... but if your parents are paying? To me, that's disrespectful. & I know it's different bc community college, and you're paying something like $20 per unit (even tho if you're taking like 18 units that's like what, $360?)... & then I'm on a different field because I had to go to a liberal arts school... I mean had as in I had the chance to go to a cheaper school but having the parents who try to keep me happy and just wish for my success, I went here...
I guess it just shows the benefits about being an introvert... you don't have to put up with peoples' negativity... and in my peer group, a lot of peoples' opinions have no real factual... point. They just bitch and moan and complain and their reason is mostly "just because".
I know that a lot of people who read this, are, of course, in my peer group... I don't know. Sorry if I offended you. Really, this isn't meant to hurt peoples' feelings or to put anyone down, especially specifically anyone. It's just the way I feel... my opinion, which I'm entitled to. And everyone else is entitled to their own. But no harm was meant to be put on anyone in saying this.
I just keep thinking to the last time I exercised my opinion like this and someone just flipped out and took it HELLA personally and then started to attack my character in "revenge" in response to what I said. Even in that case, I didn't mean to personally hurt her or her character, & I apologized if that's the way she took it. Too bad she never apologized for what she said though.
It really shows something when you choose to cut off your friendship with someone and he doesn't even notice... it just proves what kind of friendship you had in the first place. It's disappointing that a 13 year relationship, including a year and a half of something more than friendship, comes down to practically nothing. If I go into more detail, then I should practically name names. Whatever, it's not like I ever see anyone anymore. & I've changed so much over time that the only people who know me these days are Michael and my family.
Does this sound like a pity party where I'm wallowing in my own sorrow? No... just had to get some things off my back. It's surprising I'm not more depressed or angry as I write this... just shows that I've developed a layer of apathy, for better or worse.
PS. I love my true friends, you know who you are...
PPS. Please pray for my "lil brother"... he wasn't able to play last weekend in the football game against Salesian because of his leg. I hope he'll be alright, especially for Homecoming.
I'll make it more personal... so I know that I'm probably never going to skip a class here @ USF because it's a complete waste of money if I choose to do so. And my parents don't have that money to waste... so if my parents are going to spend how much to educate me and plan for my future, the least I can do is go to class and try my best.
I guess I don't really understand how people can skip class. Maybe if you're the one who's paying for your classes, it's your own money that you're wasting... but if your parents are paying? To me, that's disrespectful. & I know it's different bc community college, and you're paying something like $20 per unit (even tho if you're taking like 18 units that's like what, $360?)... & then I'm on a different field because I had to go to a liberal arts school... I mean had as in I had the chance to go to a cheaper school but having the parents who try to keep me happy and just wish for my success, I went here...
I guess it just shows the benefits about being an introvert... you don't have to put up with peoples' negativity... and in my peer group, a lot of peoples' opinions have no real factual... point. They just bitch and moan and complain and their reason is mostly "just because".
I know that a lot of people who read this, are, of course, in my peer group... I don't know. Sorry if I offended you. Really, this isn't meant to hurt peoples' feelings or to put anyone down, especially specifically anyone. It's just the way I feel... my opinion, which I'm entitled to. And everyone else is entitled to their own. But no harm was meant to be put on anyone in saying this.
I just keep thinking to the last time I exercised my opinion like this and someone just flipped out and took it HELLA personally and then started to attack my character in "revenge" in response to what I said. Even in that case, I didn't mean to personally hurt her or her character, & I apologized if that's the way she took it. Too bad she never apologized for what she said though.
It really shows something when you choose to cut off your friendship with someone and he doesn't even notice... it just proves what kind of friendship you had in the first place. It's disappointing that a 13 year relationship, including a year and a half of something more than friendship, comes down to practically nothing. If I go into more detail, then I should practically name names. Whatever, it's not like I ever see anyone anymore. & I've changed so much over time that the only people who know me these days are Michael and my family.
Does this sound like a pity party where I'm wallowing in my own sorrow? No... just had to get some things off my back. It's surprising I'm not more depressed or angry as I write this... just shows that I've developed a layer of apathy, for better or worse.
PS. I love my true friends, you know who you are...
PPS. Please pray for my "lil brother"... he wasn't able to play last weekend in the football game against Salesian because of his leg. I hope he'll be alright, especially for Homecoming.
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