Warning... depressing/negative blog ahead. If I was in a good mood, I wouldn't want to be brought down by it.

I'm having a very bad past few hours... urgh... I don't know what it is, it's just my mindset is in a really really bad place and I just feel negative and unhappy and upset and it's at nothing in particular but then it feels like things just always go wrong when I'm in this mindset...

It took me like twenty minutes to decide what to wear today. Twenty. My God, what is wrong with me? And I can't find my sunglasses... both pairs too.... and I just bought new ones and now I have no idea what's happened to them because I just wore them yesterday so it doesn't make any sense unless I lost them and knowing me that's how it goes because I'm just that unlucky and fucked up.

I need some sort of release right now. I'm so stressed and tense and unhappy that I can't stand it. I'm just happy I get to go home tomorrow evening... although my mother will probably only piss me off more. But I'm looking forward to seeing the new computer and my cats... hopefully they'll be in a good mood and want to play with me.

UGH what the fuck is wrong with me? I'd go shopping but shopping depresses me too. Especially trying on clothes. SHIT I'm getting so fat it's disgusting. Fat in the sense that I'm gaining weight and it doesn't feel good or natural and it's not going to the places you'd think I should gain weight in. God I'm so unhappy right now. I'm just pissed off at the world and the world is flipping me off in return.