the wonderful world of jengy

a little insight into the complex, iron deficient, teeny mind of mine

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Sunday, July 18, 2004

Ashlee Simpson is my new hero. July 20, yay.
 
Since when did they change the colors here?  Crazy. 
 
Well it's getting late and I've had an eventful weekend.  Too much crying.  But at least I was able to get through some stuff and learn a few lessons, and just realize that dealing with things is much more productive than sitting around complaining about it.  Which is probably the reason I have internal drama, because I'm terrible at confrontation (with anyone but Michael), so hella stuff just eats at me for the longest time because I can't deal with it. 
 
But thanks to you all who have made things easier... who haven't made me question my past and have given me no regrets... mainly/especially: Tricia/Guna/Chrissytina/John E/Chris Bunggay.
 
And Michael... despite our fights, even the big ones that just don't seem to end sometimes... we learn.  We can talk things through.  Despite me telling you that you don't know a lot about me... you know more than anyone will ever know because you've gained my respect, trust, and love in a way that no one else ever has.  I am forever grateful for you being in my life at this time.
 
Life for me is just kinda crazy right now.  It's that thing where all the bad things happen at once.  Overwhelming.  Only a month till I can move back to San Francisco.  Then, whenever I have troubles, I can just MUNI it on over to Ocean Beach to sort out all the shit in my life.
 
It's crazy how in the span of 24 hours I can feel like I'm the luckiest girl in the world, then the most hopeless, saddest, unsatisfied creature on the planet.
 
Oh yeah, this is drama for yo' mama (who's so fat she could sell shade... those Chicklets commercials are great!)
 
Cinderella Story was worth the Chad Michael Murray-ness of it all.  Great shoulders, puppy dogg look.  Did what every high school girl dreams about... wait I shouldn't say it bc people haven't seen it yet.  Well, he's hot.  Michael had to cover my eyes more than once.  The Chad is engaged now too.  & apparently it was when he was in Austrailia, the same time my friend saw him there @ the airport (with the soon to be fiancee too).  Some chicks have all the luck.
 
And most of the time, because of the positive energy and good influence he brings, thanks to Michael, I consider myself one of those lucky chicks too. 
 
Most of the time. 
 
 


 

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