ARRRG. I don't know why I'm feeling bugged right now, but I am. Actually, I can pinpoint the main reason, and then of course, it makes me think of other things that bug me, so now I'm fully bugged. UGH.
People suck. So I'm realizing what friendships were worth it and why some were never worth it to begin with. How can you become close to someone when you can't even tell them half of the things going on in your life? And I'm beginning to really understand that I miss the friendship, but not the person that he/she is now. I wouldn't get along with the person he/she is now anyway because... well I just wouldn't want to. Positive reinforcement only.
So yeah. Because I'll find myself being hurt because friendships didn't work out, but I think about the kind of people they are now... and I realize that I'm probably better off. & yeah, just whatever makes them happy...
(even if not keeping in touch with friends they've had for over a decade makes them happy)
It just kind of sucks because me & my sister are the kind of people who go to a store, and we kind of shop for our friends. We see things that remind us of other people & often, we'll buy it and get it for them for no reason, just for the reason that they'll probably like it. I do that a lot with a particular person and my sister even said that that person would like it... but I had to say too bad I don't talk to that person anymore.
It's like when you break up with someone and everything around you reminds you of them. I've always had a hard time letting go of relationships, even when I knew they weren't going to work out. I guess it's better that it applies to all relationships, not just those with the opposite sex.
I had a good weekend tho. Going to the city with my family, going to all these foodie specialty shops in parts of the city that I've hardly been to. I have a feeling that one day when I throw a tantrum during the school year, I'll just find myself wandering some part of the city... MUNI is my friend. I miss San Francisco, altho I know I'll miss everything this summer in the South Bay. It was definitely a better growing experience than college has been.
Getting another piercing (ASHLEE SIMPSON IS MY HERO AND I WANT TO DO EVERYTHING LIKE HER! sort of). OH did I say already that I showed my navel to my mother? She totally yelled & hit me... sort of in the the dressing room of Mervyn's while I was trying on bras. It was only cause my sister showed her her tattoos, and mom didn't get mad at her. Then my mom begged me not to get a tattoo. Too bad the only time I ever got interested in getting one was a week after that.
So yeah. And I'm dying my hair blue. Black blue. I hope it doesnt fade away in a week like that great black cherry colour did.
UHM... TRICIA, JAE, GUNA, JOHN, CHRIS, CHRISSYTINA I MISS YOU. Thanks for keeping in touch. You guys are nice. JOHN when do Kings tickets go on sale?
People suck. So I'm realizing what friendships were worth it and why some were never worth it to begin with. How can you become close to someone when you can't even tell them half of the things going on in your life? And I'm beginning to really understand that I miss the friendship, but not the person that he/she is now. I wouldn't get along with the person he/she is now anyway because... well I just wouldn't want to. Positive reinforcement only.
So yeah. Because I'll find myself being hurt because friendships didn't work out, but I think about the kind of people they are now... and I realize that I'm probably better off. & yeah, just whatever makes them happy...
(even if not keeping in touch with friends they've had for over a decade makes them happy)
It just kind of sucks because me & my sister are the kind of people who go to a store, and we kind of shop for our friends. We see things that remind us of other people & often, we'll buy it and get it for them for no reason, just for the reason that they'll probably like it. I do that a lot with a particular person and my sister even said that that person would like it... but I had to say too bad I don't talk to that person anymore.
It's like when you break up with someone and everything around you reminds you of them. I've always had a hard time letting go of relationships, even when I knew they weren't going to work out. I guess it's better that it applies to all relationships, not just those with the opposite sex.
I had a good weekend tho. Going to the city with my family, going to all these foodie specialty shops in parts of the city that I've hardly been to. I have a feeling that one day when I throw a tantrum during the school year, I'll just find myself wandering some part of the city... MUNI is my friend. I miss San Francisco, altho I know I'll miss everything this summer in the South Bay. It was definitely a better growing experience than college has been.
Getting another piercing (ASHLEE SIMPSON IS MY HERO AND I WANT TO DO EVERYTHING LIKE HER! sort of). OH did I say already that I showed my navel to my mother? She totally yelled & hit me... sort of in the the dressing room of Mervyn's while I was trying on bras. It was only cause my sister showed her her tattoos, and mom didn't get mad at her. Then my mom begged me not to get a tattoo. Too bad the only time I ever got interested in getting one was a week after that.
So yeah. And I'm dying my hair blue. Black blue. I hope it doesnt fade away in a week like that great black cherry colour did.
UHM... TRICIA, JAE, GUNA, JOHN, CHRIS, CHRISSYTINA I MISS YOU. Thanks for keeping in touch. You guys are nice. JOHN when do Kings tickets go on sale?
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