Alright it's finals week and this is what I'm doing at two eleven in the morning.

But I (sort of) on top of my shit so let's just keep going now.

It's been a rather frustrating weekend. Lots of urgs, tears... realizations.

Why do the most... irk people... make you realize basic things.... and you just end up feeling so sorry for them because their life must be so... so... well it's just unimaginable to me, to be that un-self-realized... self-actualization. it's like how people know how they are and do nothing to stop it... or dont even feel remorse towards it... it's like wow... can't believe you're like that... can't believe you have the energy to be like that... who taught you to be like that...

on the flipside i guess it does make me feel better for having the family and friends and boyfriend that i do... positive people who love me and teach me good lessons...

i know i can be a hypocrite... but i own up to my shit at least... and i try hard not to make the same mistake twice... so i can deal with this...

im in love with jz/lp collision course. big pimpin/papercut ... amazing. i wish there were more than six songs. i love being eclectic. it makes me feel open minded and not so exclusive aka snobby, which i've been accused of more than once.

so rachael ray was supposed to be in santana row on saturday but she was there on friday doing a demonstration and book signing and i missed it... im so sad... i was getting so amped about having a picture with her and making it myspace material... that woulda been so hot... but alas it wasn't meant to be... mekhi phifer was on the friday episode... oh man he kept kissing her hands he's such a flirt... im so in love with mekhi...

Mekhi: I dont really know how to cook...
Rachael: I would be HAPPY to cook for you
Me to Michael: I'd be happy to be cooking breakfast for him!!

That's right. That's what I discuss with my boyfriend. He knows it.

He made me lobster & shrimp scampi on Thursday night. I made him sinigang. It was great. I LOVE my necklace. HE DOES LISTEN! So awesome.

Ok it's two thirty and I'm delirious. Goodnight all.

WAIT. ok so on friday i went to a potluck dinner and we were playing trivial pursuit dvd edition and then when we were done (before we were watching runaway jury on miramax or cinemax) and then when we were done the tv was showing Busty Cops and they had direct tv so it had the little synopsis of the movie and it said something about two cops go under the covers to solve a murder mystery... it was hilarious...

bj is eating my baklava right now. it needs melted chocolate. i work on thursday.