Hey man. I'm way excited today... tonight... whenever... now! I'm really happy and it's just great... and I'm not even being sarcastic... I know that future things could bring me down but right now i'm just happy with the way things are...
So Michael came by early early this morning for breakfast... then we waited for me to get better while watching TV & while he played Gunbound on my computer, where my internet's all happy now... then he brought back dim sum & egg flower soup for us... thennn... we went to Bay Street and then I got all sad cause I wanted to spend money but ended up only buying from See's to cheer me up... then yeah...
So he brought me to his church because the youth were having an "Outlet" where it was just like a release from regular life to focus on God... and wow... for the first time in, I think, two years, I felt what can only be described as... a religious awakening. I've been travelling this shaky line of spirituality and doubt and questioning my faith but tonight... tonight was just... it completely refined my outlook on life and God and faith and understanding my beliefs and yeah... it was amazing. I felt so uplifted... things feel clear now, and I know that doesn't really make sense, but it's just that this void I've been feeling for some time has finally had some clearance and it's just... yes.
So thank you, God, for bringing Michael, into my life. He is a true angel, has saved me from so much, and has taught me so much. I really, truly understand why he and I went through all of the obstacles in the beginning of our relationship and had the friendship that we did... it really has made us so strong and so close today, a true foundation of what is to come.
And now I finally understand that everything and everyone is a lesson, is a blessing. So everyone that I've spoken more than two sentences in high school... or even elementary school... more likely than not, I think of you fondly... there is an essential good in everyone and I've been blessed enough to see and experience it. Thank you for being a part of my life thus far.
Sorry if I sound preachy... but for the first time, in such a healthy and well rounded way, I feel happy.
Goodnight everyone!
So Michael came by early early this morning for breakfast... then we waited for me to get better while watching TV & while he played Gunbound on my computer, where my internet's all happy now... then he brought back dim sum & egg flower soup for us... thennn... we went to Bay Street and then I got all sad cause I wanted to spend money but ended up only buying from See's to cheer me up... then yeah...
So he brought me to his church because the youth were having an "Outlet" where it was just like a release from regular life to focus on God... and wow... for the first time in, I think, two years, I felt what can only be described as... a religious awakening. I've been travelling this shaky line of spirituality and doubt and questioning my faith but tonight... tonight was just... it completely refined my outlook on life and God and faith and understanding my beliefs and yeah... it was amazing. I felt so uplifted... things feel clear now, and I know that doesn't really make sense, but it's just that this void I've been feeling for some time has finally had some clearance and it's just... yes.
So thank you, God, for bringing Michael, into my life. He is a true angel, has saved me from so much, and has taught me so much. I really, truly understand why he and I went through all of the obstacles in the beginning of our relationship and had the friendship that we did... it really has made us so strong and so close today, a true foundation of what is to come.
And now I finally understand that everything and everyone is a lesson, is a blessing. So everyone that I've spoken more than two sentences in high school... or even elementary school... more likely than not, I think of you fondly... there is an essential good in everyone and I've been blessed enough to see and experience it. Thank you for being a part of my life thus far.
Sorry if I sound preachy... but for the first time, in such a healthy and well rounded way, I feel happy.
Goodnight everyone!
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