somtimes people surprise you...

for better and for worse.

i wish that i could relax. by myself. away from everything and everyone for like, a day.

it feels like God is testing me... one right after the other, simultaneously... and I keep feeling like I'm failing. Tested and failing... constantly.

since August things have just gone from bad to worse. i'm scared.

im graduating early. i dont know what i'll do for a semester. work. travel. re-examine my life. await word from grad school (where am I applying? I feel like applying nearby... I don't know what's best for me anymore)

i'm very lost and i need to find my way and i have no idea where to begin.