where are all the nice guys? why am I just now realizing why guys get such a bad reputation... because man, guys are just gross. I don't care if I'm young and I'm not supposed to be tied down and I'm supposed to gallavant, guys are just plain gross, the whole lot of them immature and inconsiderate, while I am lucky enough to be with someone who isnt perfect but strives for a perfect love with me.
I have nice guy friends, and the boyfriend is the nicest guy there is... like I told BJ last week, I know there's no guy who would put up with me as much as he does without complaining and without name calling (YES my boyfriend has NEVER name called... which is more than I can say for me) and no guy will ever treat me as good as this guy does. Lately he's just keeping me in check a little more because I am spoiled, and I got used to it... and now I can't be as spoiled as I was (and yes I was completely spoiled, luckier than I knew at the time) so it's just bringing me down to reality... but even though he can't spoil me the way he used to... he'll still drive my ass around to all these places that he may not really want to go to, he'll care for me when I'm sick (even sick in the girl sense, like the monthly sense, he really really does take care of me during that time, even though you wouldnt think so because he doesnt experience it so he shouldnt understand but he cares for me like he does)... he puts up with my family accidentally but routinely calling him "Mark" for the past four years. And all of this has been true for the past four years... four...
All of this is true. I need affirmation, but not really... my affirmation states me in the face, and I know it all, and I shouldn't take the advice of people who have never been in a real relationship in the first place, people who lack common sense, people who haven't matured yet... just because these were people who meant something to me in the first place, popular response to my thinking so has always been wondering why. Now I wonder along with them.
I don't need to convince them. All that matters is what I know... and while it may appear naive to some people... can you really be naive after four years of something that is tried and true. And who should I convince, this person who once had a significant other and broke up with her without actually telling her to her face? The same person who never had a real relationship? Wow, I really need to realize the facts about how above this I should be.
Occasionally I wonder if I'm missing out because I shut people out, because I keep to myself and a very few chosen friends. Then someone comes along and proves to me how screwed up people can be... then I realize I am safer and happier remaining somewhat incognito... am I using that word right?
Thank you a lot, Tricia, for being there to confirm what I felt. Even though I knew what I felt, and I would have felt it irregardless (Mean Girls shoutout) of confirmation. But it felt good to have it confirmed & know that someone would have reacted just as I did.
Someone needs to shake me with the truths that my head knows. Just because one ass comes around and shakes me up doesn't mean a thing... it just happens so... well I've tried to make it happen so irregularly... that it does just throw me for a loop. I'm human... even if I know the real of it.
I've had a rough night. Sorry for the excessive posting, I have a lot to say tonight. Some people, however, say too much.
I have nice guy friends, and the boyfriend is the nicest guy there is... like I told BJ last week, I know there's no guy who would put up with me as much as he does without complaining and without name calling (YES my boyfriend has NEVER name called... which is more than I can say for me) and no guy will ever treat me as good as this guy does. Lately he's just keeping me in check a little more because I am spoiled, and I got used to it... and now I can't be as spoiled as I was (and yes I was completely spoiled, luckier than I knew at the time) so it's just bringing me down to reality... but even though he can't spoil me the way he used to... he'll still drive my ass around to all these places that he may not really want to go to, he'll care for me when I'm sick (even sick in the girl sense, like the monthly sense, he really really does take care of me during that time, even though you wouldnt think so because he doesnt experience it so he shouldnt understand but he cares for me like he does)... he puts up with my family accidentally but routinely calling him "Mark" for the past four years. And all of this has been true for the past four years... four...
All of this is true. I need affirmation, but not really... my affirmation states me in the face, and I know it all, and I shouldn't take the advice of people who have never been in a real relationship in the first place, people who lack common sense, people who haven't matured yet... just because these were people who meant something to me in the first place, popular response to my thinking so has always been wondering why. Now I wonder along with them.
I don't need to convince them. All that matters is what I know... and while it may appear naive to some people... can you really be naive after four years of something that is tried and true. And who should I convince, this person who once had a significant other and broke up with her without actually telling her to her face? The same person who never had a real relationship? Wow, I really need to realize the facts about how above this I should be.
Occasionally I wonder if I'm missing out because I shut people out, because I keep to myself and a very few chosen friends. Then someone comes along and proves to me how screwed up people can be... then I realize I am safer and happier remaining somewhat incognito... am I using that word right?
Thank you a lot, Tricia, for being there to confirm what I felt. Even though I knew what I felt, and I would have felt it irregardless (Mean Girls shoutout) of confirmation. But it felt good to have it confirmed & know that someone would have reacted just as I did.
Someone needs to shake me with the truths that my head knows. Just because one ass comes around and shakes me up doesn't mean a thing... it just happens so... well I've tried to make it happen so irregularly... that it does just throw me for a loop. I'm human... even if I know the real of it.
I've had a rough night. Sorry for the excessive posting, I have a lot to say tonight. Some people, however, say too much.
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