I want to watch The Little Mermaid with Cha this Halloween again...

I feel so invisible...

Don't you hate it when there are so many ways that people can contact you, yet not a soul does?...

And then when you try to contact someone else... they only have one number of contact... and either their phone is off or it has no reception...

You can try and try all you want... and it STILL won't do any good. I feel this way about school too... how I try so hard to understand something or write up a good essay and then there's someone who gives a rat's ass about whatever we're doing, does it in the wee hours before the class starts, and still gets a better grade than me.

ALL THIS FUCKING TRYING IS FOR NOTHING. Life has given up on me... why haven't I gotten the hint yet?

Actually... I do now. I've given up. Officially. ON ME. You, if you haven't already, should too.

It's strange reading the kiddies (high schoolers) websites and then they're all dramatic about how once you graduate it's like an end of the world, and you only have one chance to do things right...

How come no one was like that with grade school? I mean, I know I was close friends (but probably not real friends) with people who I barely talked to in high school... and it wasn't really all drama drama...

I don't know... being in college now... like many others, I'm missing the times that even went before high school... not to say I don't miss high school too, I do to some extent (even though I'm not sure if I would repeat the experience if I could)... like what Cha was talking about... with my sleepovers & how we'd go trick or treating and make cookies and eat a lot and dress my dolls in foil...

I'm eating bad Asian food once again that probably wouldn't be so bad if there weren't bell peppers! And if you know me you know I HATE bell peppers... I took them all out and now I have that spicy aftertaste sort of thing... it's not as bad as it could be I guess but yeah, I'm sad at the lack of good food. I'm so tempted to MUNI it over to Bangkok noodles but I have on campus stuff to do. & Then if I go after class then it's already dark and going around off campus by myself in the dark is kind of scary.

OK MORE LATER BYE

Heylo! I had a wonderful day today... talking s about someone in Politics with Christina and Sean... yeah he was clapping for himself... that was funny... finished up my French test really really fast... uhhhm... let Michael sleep in my room while I went to stats class... he was bad and tried to get me not to go... alright ninety dollars down the drain!....

We went to Fisherman's Wharf without getting really lost... ha... then we ate @ Chowders... he got SWAT stuff... (yes the question marks are floating above my head STILL about that...)... & I bought him & Steph & myself stuff from the Rocky Mountain Chocolate Factory...

I forget what else happened. I took Michael up Lone Mountain. Haha, he was counting all the stairs... 103... 108 if you count the ones after the street thing... I wanted him to see the view of the city from up there... then we got coffee & we got really confused as to whose coffee was whose...

Now he's staring at the Kings Game like it's a naked woman... his face is really close to my TV... and I'm eating like everything in this room. No kidding. I kind of really want to buy pizza. Bad. I've got... uhm, let's just say I have to burp but it comes out of the other end... it's okay I have My Shaldan!

UHM. I forget. OK BYE!

Hello! I'm refreshed right now because I just tore up the rest of my sinigang from last night like nobody's business. WHOO. I feel like a third Otter Pop. Or maybe I'll go microwave my chocolate chip cookies. I KNOW IM GAINING WEIGHT & IT'S ALL GOING TO THE TUMMY... You swear I should gain weight in other places but it goes straight TO THE TUMMY. Hence the non midriff baring clothing... EVER.

It was 92 degrees today in San Francisco... probably for the first and last time... bye bye halter tops... see you next June...

YAY SEAFOOD.

HMM... I'm hating my written & oral class right now, probably will for a good long time now because of this stupid research project... it's so time consuming... I like how everyone keeps talking about doing homework all the time... maybe it's cause they're all science majors... the social science major here... has it coming...

Maybe I'll just crush my package of Ramen and sprinkle the seasoning and it'll be this funn sodium filled pre fried noodle dish. YAY.

I WISH MY WEIGHT WOULD GO SOMEWHERE ELSE!

What else what else what else what else...

French test tomorrow! WHOO. Hopefully I finish early so I get out of class early so I can go get coffee and YEAH. I'm contemplating whether or not I should study for it because I have a class before it where all we're doing is presentations and I did mine on Monday soo... zone out time, party of ME!

I loved how earlier today I had ribs and when I was trying to cut it the sauce would get all over the place. The corn was good...

I don't know what else to sayyyy... Ok I should attempt that homework thing... maybe a more in depth blog will come soon... I'm due to be PMSing any time now! Look forward to it! I know I AM!

Wow the sarcasm levels in this room are unusually high.

Aww Jami... don't be sad... I was sad this weekend cause you didn't call... but it's okay I just wanted you to have funn & I know that a few dates with Sean this past weekend cheered you up some... and don't worry, it's not like any of us are falling off of the face of the planet (except for Ed Manio and Steph Quan, right Tricia?), so there's always next time to see each other... I HEART YOU JAE!! Besides... you got to see Sean like every day back @ St. Pats in junior & senior year... I never got that... not every day...

I want Texas Toast! & I want to try those new Milano cookies with French Vanilla... it makes me curious...

Michael, sorry I only made noises this morning when you called... "Good morning!" "Ehhh" "Sorry!" "Mmm he meme" "Okay go back to sleep" "Mmm ehhh" "I love you" "me Hmm muu" "Okay bye" "Hmm"

Researching stuff sucks. I wish that I could just learn... learn about politics... and write... write freely on a given topic... without all this factual smactual shit... I need to take a creative writing class or something... man... I'm obliterating...

It's funn seeing all these young actors I've seen in other places on CSI.

I want to download Tears for Fears and SWV.

Once again I have two papers to do within the next... well by tomorrow... one's not even in ENGLISH... and that's as in, not in the English language... and what am I doing? Eating my happy faced crepe (yes, "the crepe man" made it smile with nutella...) & my powersized Jamba that they screwed up then upgraded to make up for it...

SOO tired. Want to take a few Advils and nap but I CANT. Sadness. I probably will end up doing that and end up doing my papers till one. I will NEVER do an all nighter. How can you think correctly without any sleep? I can barely think correctly with eight hours of sleep!

I'm so excited for SEAFOOD on Wednesday! Not only seafood, but seafood with MICHAEL!!! I'm looking forward to just walking on the pier and looking at the sea lions with him. When we went last time, we discovered that a male's thingy is like bright red... good to know, eh? I HELLA want some seafood right now. I don't care what kind! I just want some! Lobster, shrimp, calamari, crab... hot damn. It's so funn being excited about food though.

I think I should start accepting that gaining weight is a good thing for me. With the way I eat... I just need to keep fidgeting... THAT'S how you lose weight... plus a fast metabolism...

Yay there's sinigang in my fridge! Happy, Michael, I'm eating filipino food so I'm not so chinese or whatever...

Don't you love how pretty much this entire blog was about food???

It's funn to talk when I'm tired. HA.