im blue.

"they" dont want me. =(

i hope all of the mail soon coming to me is safe and actually gets to me.

saddened.

hi.

i think i take things too personally. and i have a bit of a sweet sixteen complex in the sense that i sometimes think that the world revolves around me because i always think that people have it out for me. oh wait, no, that's just paranoia. but sometimes it's true and maybe i'm just being astute. or paranoid. not sure yet. if you ask me, it's being very very aware and picking up on little hints. if you ask anyone else, they'll say i'm being paranoid.

im tired. i have a quiz tomorrow and i half get it. i hope a lot of it is common sense. my teacher talks too softly and too quickly; whenever i feel like he's going to make a main point, he interrupts himself. it makes taking logical notes difficult.

made a long blog earlier but then my internet cut out.

is it possible to feel resentful towards being discluded while also preferring to be alone and introverted? oxymoronic.

it's chilly. the sweater thingy im wearing still has its tag on.

i cant study without scented candles.

hello. my tummy hurts. ive eaten too much. a lot. im in that hunger pms mode. it's somewhat better than being in the bitchy pms mode.

college is different than high school because with the extra curriculars, it's very easy to just decide not to go. i guess it's like the way everyone else decides not to go to class. yeah. sorry. the fullness is making it hard to think.

i miss the boyfriend. he's been @ work since two. i edited his personal statement.

desperate housewives.

i wish i had spider solitaire on this computer.

my boy jamie mcmurray got into a crash today. @ least he took down jeff gordon with him. hooray for rusty wallace tho.