I'm in a bag of mixed feelings right now... cause last night it was all distress and inspiration sort of then at work today it was good feelings and stuff & then after work it was reminicing and thinking and now i'm just in a not so good mood... i'm supposed to be getting my monthly friend soon so i think that's why.

I hate being moody. It's no funn... it's like being irritated at everything and everyone for no reason. & it always starts small... like the smallest thing done by one person can tick me off... which is exactly what happened. Grr.

Okay... I want to try to be positive... Regina & Berlinette, I LOVE YOU. BE STRONG. Charlene-boo-boo-boo-boo-boo. She'll never read this but if she does she'll understand what I'm talking about (I hope!)...

UHHM. I'm not in a good mood so that'll be it.

Hello! I got to sleep in today... cause work started @ twelve... to find that it was quite slow & we were already cleaning up cause there was little to do... so then yeah... me & Desiree had funn bagging popcorn... then they put me @ fountain... I talked to Kathleen's... object of affection... his friend Marlon kept rearranging my products @ the tree & stuff... me & Angela finally got to see each other & say hi cause she didn't go to work for awhile cause of her bday... so yes we missed each other... but then she was mean cause she tricked me... uhhm... & Roscelle was nice to me even tho the other day she had to go to Dolphin cause I'm not allowed to scoop soft frozen... so I felt bad but she was hella nice today so yes... snaps to her.

UHHHM... me & Michael finally figured out what's been going wrong with us... or should I say me... & while he's by my side... we can get through it... like we always do!!!... yay... he gives me hope... I like hope... & I don't like it when we decide that I'm grounded... cause that means I don't get to see him... & when I say "we" in "we decided", I mean me & Michael... we're weird huh??...

I got my ID today! Whoo hoo! Let's go... clubbing? smoking? porno reading? gambling? Check writing? I'm down for that... I want sweaters... okaebye!

Today... didn't have work... & since I grounded myself bc no one else will, I spent the day with my mom... woke up late... we went to Olive Garden & I finally tried the chicken alfredo pizza, the one that Steph swears by... it was pretty damn good... then we went to Target where I saw Eileen Gail... & then my moms got a haircut, so I caught up on my Glamour reading... that was a pretty interesting mag...

So now they come home with my Jamba Juice! Yay! Oh & yes, while I was waiting I was adjusting my aol on my new computer... so I know that no one reads this, but if you do... add Jengyroo123 to your buddy list! Kae bye!

PS Michael... I hope... hope... that we can talk soon.

Let's see... I updated this yesterday... so that leaves... today!

Today... was work... I got to prep w/Berlinette, which is always funn... then they sent me to harbor tree, which I've never like done stuff @ before... but it was alrite... the weather in the shade was nice.

You know what I just found out the other night? I don't like it when people call me when they're drunk. Yeah, I never knew that until it happened Saturday night/Sunday morning (1:45am, to be exact sort of)... yeah. I don't like that. Who called me? you might be wondering... yeah I don't feel like saying... let your imaginations FLY.

There's always more to say when I'm not actually posting. I got my new computer today. I have this haunting feeling tho that my parents are going to take it & I'm going to end up with the old computer for college.

Ok Bye.

Hello! I left on Thursday... on Friday I went to Jon's house super early like I always end up doing... & we caught up on life while waiting for other guests... I like his pretty dog, Tag. We went to Waterworld with Guna & Joe & Marchessa & her friends... sorry I don't quite remember all of their names, Jon has a list on his site...

We went to Waterworld... I got Christina in for free bc of my badge... it was funn. I didn't get darker... & I felt sorta third wheelish but not bc anyone made me feel that way... Marchessa's friends... they reminded me of something familiar... I thought about it today & talked about it with Jenn B... put things into perspective for me sorta.

After Waterworld we went to the mall for dinner & boba... & then Michael, Dru, & Camille met me for Todai!! Yes that was wonderful. Ebi & tempura out the ears man.

Then bad stuff happened that night that I don't want to think about... yes I'll leave it like that, all mysterious like. Okay.

Uhm Saturday... Roo came... the familia went to Walnut Creek & Nordstrom's was having the anniversary sale which was great cause it's so much stuff on sale but it's not great cause it's SO much stuff on sale you know? Yeah... I bought too much. Roo's a bad influence. All telling me that I can pull off pink. I really like my hat tho. I got a matching scarf too that has an embroidered J on it... but Roo picked it up & i haven't seen it since yesterday, pre embroidery.

Then Michael & I went to Aimee's cotillion... quite beautiful. Pretty. Uhhm... Dru sang well! Oh! Highlight of the night... DJs were playing Achy Breaky Heart for the Filipino line dancing which as we all know is quite customary @ cotillions... & then during the part with no music in the background, just Garth, they played Justin Timberlake's I Just Wanna Love You backbeat... country + Justin? How funn! Oh & her little gifty things were pretty damn nifty too.

Worked today. I saw my schedule for next week & bc I'm subbing for Myzen on Sunday, I'm even-ing out my paycheck so it'll be normal. Ha... & they thought they could cut my hours..

Regina, Myzen, & Jenn B (especially Jenn B!!!) made my day today. They brought me smiles... and Jenn provided wonderful conversation as usual. I adore that girl sooo much. She makes me feel worthwhile too. I hope that one day @ work it'll be me, her & Berlinette bonding over snow cones or something again. Yay.

Okay... waiting for Michael to call... I'm sad cause I didn't get to go to his cousin's bday party today bc of work... Happy Birthday Katelyn!