I let everything and everyone (no exceptions this time) make me depressed... it's not that they're doing it, it's that I'm letting them let me feel this way. I like how this depression thing doesn't necessarily go away.. it just gets buried and suppressed and then comes out whenever it feels like it...

By the way... I'm cancelling the other blog site... I only blogged when he blogged and bc he doesn't blog there's no point. No point, no blog site. Makes sense enough to me.

Everyone just.. do what you've been doing and leave me alone. I think that if people NOW ask me if I'm okay and if I'm alright... this sudden concern is bullshit so don't even try it.

So I'm back... went on the senior trip to SoCal... Six Flags Magic Mountain and Disneyland... left on Thursday at two in the morning... sat next to Chris Bunggay, & we did stops like every two hours, and the first two hours, me & Chris are the only ones awake and we're talking and catching up... I think we pissed some people off cause we were kinda loud... and then yeah, after that stop I slept... & then I ate at Denny's at the second stop with Aileen, Eileen, Charlene, Nessa, & Christine... got free coffee!... & then yeah arrived @ Magic Mountain around nine thirty...

uhhm Magic Mountain was okay... I was trying to stay positive bc everyone else was so negative for some reason or another... bad things happened to some people, which sucks... & Deja Vu was the scariest ride ever... alright Christine, no first row for me thanks... and then yeah that Superman ride... I expected more... & we helped Jon purchase cute things for the gf...

i cant talk right now... more later... maybe.

Harrow. Funny work story of the day... uhm so this couple, meaning some chick & her guy buy cotton candy from me @ the register... & then after they buy it, the guy, who's old, not cute, and either has a few teeth missing or they're just plain crooked... well the guy asks me for free cotton candy... and of course I say no... and he asks why ... I can't remember if I shrugged or if I said "because"... and then I think about it afterwards and I'm thinking okay, shouldn't I be the one who's asking why I should give you free cotton candy, since I don't know you and you have made me no offers for retribution... and then I'm also thinking of a better response to him than the one I gave him... and I'm thinking because your teeth don't need anymore cotton candy... and that's mean! Yeah, I just thought it, I didn't say it out loud, & I didn't even say that to anyone in person... just here. Yes. It's a little sad that's my "funny" work story of the day. This little boy irritated me cause he was acting all... jerk like and his caretaker would just laugh at how clever he is. Uhhhm no.

UHHHM what else? Two more days till Disneyland... Yay for flavored Churros! One more day of work until Disneyland... and then of course it's what I return to on Sunday! And then two days later after Sunday... which would be Tuesday... my boyfriend comes home!! Whoo hoo!

I'm hungry. All we have now is boxed food and leftovers from the shindig, which is mostly stuff that I don't eat... greattt... go preservatives. Those are so bad for you, and I'm supposed to be in a bathing suit come Thursday evening? Ewww. Yes, I know, the majority of you who are reading this are thinking how small & non excess fat having I am... but yeah, my stomach isn't as flat as I'd like it to be... let's just leave it at that.

As always I think there's more I'd like to say but I don't have the guts to express it out loud... just package it inside until it explodes in like three weeks when I surf the crimson wave. Laters.

Another wonderful day @ work... okay so if I ask you what size do you want, small or large... PLEASE DO NOT ASK ME FOR "MEDIUM". =) People are funny. It's just that @ that moment, when I've been working for six hours, & now I'm in the sun because of YOU to pay for my education, no, that's not cool.

Disneyland is on Thursday! I'm excited... and then we're going to Magic Mountain too... ehhh seeing that I'm working at Six Flags Marine World (same company as M.M.)... so yes. But I do want some funnel cake & Dippin Dots (not from McDonald's too!)... & working so close to them but not being able to buy them frustrates me!! Grrr... must have funnel cake... with THE WORKS... that's ice cream & strawberries oh hell yeah... it's like the waffle @ Field Day.

How is that Sprite Remix stuff? That intrigues me.

What else... so does anyone know if 50 Cent actually asks 21 questions in his song "21 Questions"? Charlene brought that up today... just curious...

Things to do... pick up diploma from school... find out orientation & testing dates @ USF... write thank you notes to everyone who attended my lil shindig... start packing for Thursday... find website to check minutes on AT&T cell phone... talk to Jerek so he knows my new cell number & don't lose touch with him cause he's the greatest... (I miss him!)... get my check from Dru Doggie... & I don't know what else!

Okay then... I miss Michael who's in Texas... let him find Nemo with the siblings & then feel GUILTY about keeping fish! Okay bye!

OH! PS... sorry for the double blog double blog... the other day... I didn't know it got through that one time... kae bye!

I miss talking to people... it always seems like everyone just wants to have funn... so there's no time for talking... talking's too serious, talking's not funn... I wish I could talk to people like I used to... even tho I know that I probably bored the hell out of them... but it just made me feel better, when I could get things off my chest & just be myself completely without worries or reservations towards anyone... it feels like moments like that are few and far between these days... everyone, including myself... we're just so busy and caught up in our own lives and our tasks that we don't have the time to talk anymore... but sometimes it does feel like I'm the only one who wants to talk... & that's a lonely feeling.

Graduating was funn. So much for a formal event... but I thoroughly enjoyed just about every moment of it... haha so my sis bought a couple of those foghorn thingies & then the Dean took Michael's away... so they only had one, which they kept honking while me & Roo were in the car with Michael & Dru getting gas & coffee & Italian sodas. My family left kind of early to get ready for the party, & they should have left us a camera... but I have faith that people will send me copies... hopefullie...

The party... didn't drink cause the wine smelled... not funn... & then just sorta hung out... Lani, Jason, Ed, Michael, Dru, Joe, Guna, Kuya James, Jennessa, Jennie, Chris & Robby were all there... not really people who graduated with me... but it was okay cause we all had funn nonetheless. I hope they did anyways... HELLA food @ my house... more than usual, & if you know what it's like to be @ my house when my mom's home, then you can imagine with awe what I mean when I think that there's HELLA food @ my house... yeah, food, kareoke, video games, & cell phone races.

Grad nite... hung out with Jennessa pretty much the whole night because when we left my house for Grad Nite, she got kissed by the HOODLUM! WHOO! Hahaha... yay. Yeah, then I turned her into a gambling machine. My "tattoo" is fading... & the hypnotist show was a wonderful way to spend two hours. Cept my body kept falling asleep... like you know when your foot falls asleep? But it was my whole body... kind of like that one time, remember Michael?... & then yes fate had an eye on me cause in the raffle I won a Starbucks card! Coffee is life! My parents are out right now & they're going to check how much is on the card for me...

Cause right now I'm all partied out and I'm just staying in, being the hermit that I am... sorry to Joe & Deanna that I'm not there celebrating with you right now... I probably would be a burdensome guest anyways, all tired & not smiling like... I just need to relax a little before I work for three days (probably... I gotta call in for my schedule, remind me!)... & then Disneyland! Am I excited about Disneyland? I'm not sure yet... indifference... it's a feeling that I've been feeling for awhile now... I wish I wasn't so indifferent.

Okay... it doesn't feel like a Sunday. I'm sleepy still... but I don't want to take a nap... do I? I'm going to call work now... Okay bye!

Happy graduation to all!! Yay for 03...