The air here in Vallejo is soo dry... my nasal passages are not enjoying this at all... it makes breathing not funn...

I got my flu shot this morning. Then they gave me a yellow pin that says "I got my flu shot!... did you?"... go get your flu shot everyone! If you're a Kaiser member, it's free... Saturdays & Wednesday nights... cause don't go getting people sick... that's bad... especially if you live in the dorms, where it's like Germ City, population YOU!

Work was hectic today. Hot. Hectic. Yes. People are mean when it's hot outside. We ran out of bottled water. HOW CAN YOU RUN OUT OF BOTTLED WATER? Don't you love how people ask rhetorical questions and then expect an answer other than what's completely and utterly obvious?

My Cat Hates You. Those aren't my cats even tho Nala is a biotch but it's quite humorous...

Tricia... look I blogged for you! On the slow computer on the weekend!... yes... dedicated to the one known to the people in Sacramento as the one and only HANDS. Ok bye!

ShadowLude83 (4:29:58 PM): but you're more in touch with men
ShadowLude83 (4:29:59 PM): me
ShadowLude83 (4:30:02 PM): ME
ShadowLude83 (4:30:03 PM): not men
ShadowLude83 (4:30:04 PM): ME!!!

Hellooo... whoo. Thursdays remind me that tomorrow is Friday and Fridays make me happy...

Woke up after my fabulous eight hours of sleep... by the way I can't understand how people sleep after two o clock in the morning... that's crazy crazy... college is hard enough but to be sleep deprived at the same time...

So yes, ate my pastepicking leftovers... went to French class.. watched All My Children as Greenlee thinks that she's in 1999... then took the 31 Balboa to downtown... that's right little Jenn(gy) (S)Lim went to downtown San Francisco all by herself AWW... it was funn!... I went to Nordstrom for lipliner... & Old Navy... this close to buying clothes but I restrained myself, I have too much funn I have to save up for... then I got my earrings bc I lost my other ones... then ate @ Bangkok Noodles... it was great...

The bus driver was so nice... he coulda left without me but he didn't... yes... he saw me rushing to get to the bus... so yes... that was my independent college adventure... one day I'm going to the movies by myself... just cause I can, u know?

I like doing stuff by myself. It's... liberating, to say the least. I get this peace of mind like nothing else...

Convince me not to go get dessert... or soda... I will look forward to a tuna melt & a crepe tonight... yes... I gotta learn how to be French so I don't gain weight... cause the French aren't fat... but they eat a lot... and slowly... and they don't snack... yes...

Ok. Bye.

Food makes me feel fulfilled... food & Michael... homework does not make me feel fulfilled... boo homework...

$99 MILLION. Whoo go LOTTO! They didn't card me again... alright it's time to buy some Midori Sours*...

UHHM. I can't remember now.

*DISCLAIMER: I don't drink. If you're reading this & you thought I was serious, then you probably don't know me too well. You know how some people are all "Yeah, I've been sober for like a week..."... yeah I've been sober for like, ever... yes. Ok. It was probably funnier in my head. OHWELL.

I love how my boyfriend's a freakin crackpot... LOL... if you couldn't tell by his messages on my chatterbox (which is NOT a chatroom, contrary to fucked up belief by someone...) or his message he left on our website.

He's so funny. I adore him. He feeds me paste Guna. LOL

Hi! Uhm... I'm eating fake Asian food right now, Bon Appetit style... I'm eating CILANTRO Michael MMM kiss me now! Ha...

UHHM I'm fearing my stats test in an hour... then after that me & Sean are going to our advisor to get advised on stuff... then pick up on FAILING papers for English... actually we don't know that but we think so... then I need to go buy Kleenex, posterboard, and LOTTO. 93 Million! You can't win if you don't play! Ha. Whatever.

OK I can't think of anything else... I think I'm going to Frightfest with the boyfriend & the boyfriend's cousin & the cousin's boyfriend. Haha... Kudos for you if you could follow that...

Don't you love how TV reflects your life...

Like how what me & Michael usually argue about was totally on not only Gilmore Girls (my favourite show of the moment) but also on Newlyweds: Nick & Jessica (the second top rated show on cable!)... yes.

Like how Nick wanted to surprise Jessica but she screwed it up by losing her passport... Michael wanted to surprise me by stopping by tonight without telling me but I screwed it up cause we were fighting about stuff and I went on about how it's not like he ever surprises me anyway...

& then I totally think like both Luke & Lorelai on Gilmore Girls... how I like to plan things ahead so I have something to look forward to, but then that's bad because it bulids up expectations and you look forward to getting disappointed...

The people next door SUCK. They play their music so the bass buzzes through the wall... and now it's after quiet hours so I could complain but really, who complains about their music being too loud at eight PM?

I'm hungry. Can I go pastepicking yet????

My day has been largely monumentous, as usual, but there was an exception... I was walking over to Jamba around two today & Mr. Purificacion sees me! He says hi, we chat... he finds it amazing that I go here... he gave me tips as to who to take for Philosophy... and yeah... it felt strange that someone knew me... and wanted to talk to me... it's like the same weird that I felt on Friday @ Homecoming... not bad weird, not good weird, just weird weird...

Hmm. I should write Cha back.

I'm feeling bloated lately. I'm sure I've gained weight. I need to haul ass to Koret.

Me & Michael are going "pastepicking" tonight. Cha (hopefully still) knows what that means. I'm excited for food. Capellini Gamberi. MMM.

In the words of Office Space... Somebody's got a case of the Mondays.

Okay... because of the talk about Davis on Tricia's & Jae's blogs... it makes me think... & wonder what would have happened if I went to Davis...

I know this is stupid but put yourself in my place and you'd probably feel the same way... but then one of the reasons I was thinking of going to Davis was the simple fact that I got in... and other people applied and didn't get in but I did... did that mean something? It felt like I was passing up a coveted opportunity by not going...

Cept I didn't want to go to Davis. Five hundred people in one lecture class? No thanks, I'll pass. I can't learn like that. Obviously many people can, otherwise they wouldn't be going and graduating from UCs and states & stuff... yeah I think in like sometime last spring I went to Davis to try and convince myself into going there... I like how it rained when I visisted... I don't know I felt like I wanted to cry because I knew my parents wanted me to go there but I really really didn't... & the school I wanted to go to cost so much more and I felt really bad... I felt stuck.

I don't know why I posted this, honestly. I'm not feeling well... and I don't mean physically unwell. :sigh: I wonder if I'd feel better or worse if I was @ Davis... maybe I'd be slightly more social or something... I don't know... I don't know...

Special thanks goes out to Joe, Jami, and Luana... for telling me things that supposedly everyone else feels, but assumes that I know it, so they don't bother saying it... Joe for talking to me, for confiding in me, for making me feel like my prescence means something.... Jami for making me laugh, smile, sharing in my problems, reminding me that I'm not alone in my feelings... Luana for being you for so long... for being my sister throughout the past fourteen years, for not judging me and letting me be me, and being there for me throughout everything we've been through...

Appreciation is so underrated. Doesn't anyone realize how everyone's self esteem levels would be if we showed each other how much we appreciated each other more??

STUPID STUPID LUANA! YOUR CARD DID MAKE ME CRY!!! SHIT! I'm not supposed to be emotional in that way... no crying allowed at graduations or senior nights or whatever else that made other people cry but not ME! And now... look at me tearing up at your little quarter page teal colored words. DAMMIT!! I'm smiling tho, I promise! It made my day... I love you so much girl, my life sister... omg okay no more talking about this otherwise I'm going to cry again.

CHA! I liked Cha's letter too! It didn't make me cry tho... it made me laugh because you should be cool, wear pants... & I like how she gets mad at her "table" being taken up by some guy who isn't even studying... I feel the same way about... I can't really remember what right now, but I know I felt the same way about... something! OH YES! My bathroom stall. Ha. Too bad it's the second one and I know everyone else probably feels the same way aobut it.

If I was a character in Beauty & the Beast, I'd want to be the featherduster. Or the triplet that wears green. I'm watching it right now on DVD.

I wanna be bold enough to wear sweatpants to class. But my sweatpants aren't trendy. I wear my yoga pants to class tho...

Ok so long blog. Friday, homecoming game... I liked wearing Joe's crown & talking to him & HUGGING JAREK!!! & chatting with Mr. Ross. Yes. & dodging a certain group with Cha... yes I protected her. & Denny's... now I really want a Cherry Sprite... cherry torani plus sprite uhhh underage bartender here...

Saturday... no work! I went with the parents & sister to Davis to go get sushi... & then went to Cache Creek for the first time! (me, not the rest of the family)... I like how I didn't get carded... and how I won ten dollars! Hahaha... yay. Then we went to Vacaville... Jana works @ Coach, where I got a new wallet =) & then yes.

Sunday... work... had major funn with Miranda & Joci. =) I like how pretty much ALL of my coworkers commented on the cheerleading competition this past weekend with a "I don't like cheerleaders... I don't know why I just don't like them!"... alright Varsity Cheer & Dance three years & hopeful USF cheerleader for 04. Once they found out that I was a cheerleader tho they were all, "I like you! Okay, I don't like most cheerleaders but I like you!". I thought I exeut (is that the word?) cheerleader... like I might as well wear a sign or something. Things change, I guess.

Okay, in the dorm now... watching Beauty & the Beast & missing Luana right now a lot so I could talk to her about stuff... nothing in particular, just... stuff. You know? :sigh: